Life as it is

I wrote the following post sometime last year. Nothing has changed here it. I will be going through all of the drafts from when I abandoned this blog and posting them. Here is the first one.

Did you get what you wanted?

Noticing the beauty in random places is a skill that I thought I had figured out. I don’t. I am at odds; I have a great life that anyone would be envious of, but I find it lacking. This isn’t the life I envisioned for myself. In all honesty, I thought I would have ended up a single writer or climbing some form of a corporate ladder. Living in a city of course.

Married living in suburbia with a kid was not on my bingo card. Neither was owning my own business. I have no way of knowing if what I thought should have happened would be a better life. This is what I got. Going to karate practice with my kid, while pondering additional income streams feels like too much some times.

Changing perspective.

Now, I can look at this another way and see myself as an individual who has opportunities. Running a successful business is especially difficult if there was no intention do so. Now I am responsible for creating an organization the produces good work in addition to being financially viable.

I suppose the appropriate question will be to ask what do I want from this life? The one I am living. I want to feel like I am doing enough in general. I want to have a good time. I want a professional life that doesn’t encroach on my personal life.